Now it comes... My 'goodbye' or 'see you soon' Covilha and my family! :'(
I didn't write lately, cause a lot of stuff was happening every day and I kinda didn't had time for that, but today is my first day back in Estonia and I feel too many emotions, so I am going to share them here... hope you will enjoy. :*
Right now I feel awful... yesterday was okay, when I was travelling and I can say that I was kinda keeping myself busy not to think about leaving, but now, that I am here, and start to remember all the good memories and times with the special people... only tears are coming out of me. :(
I would have never ever thought that I will find there people who would connect with me so strongly. It is insane and too crazy to be true.
I am so happy that Kika came to send me away, she actually came to the airport with me, at night! I mean like, WTF?! This kind of people are so rare and now I have them in my life! This is so freaking awesome! This Erasmus gave me more than my life has been giving me since I was born! And she was not even a part of my Erasmus from the beginning, but she really changed my pictures of life. And even though no one really understands or know her, cause she is so quiet, I feel like I know her for a long time. She is actually really fun and interesting personality, even if she tries to hide it. And last two weeks with her, travelling, laughing and sharing ideas and emotions, it was my pleasure and I can not wait for her to come visit me and the other way!
I also want to thank Joel, who is an amazing friend. He invited us to his place and while being there with my friends, it was one of my best days in Portugal, for sure! And all the other stuff that he made happen, thanks to him me, Sam and Jaana saw places that makes you wonder, if this is a real life or just a dream?! How is that possible?!
I can not and will not forget my lovely roommate, Justyna, who never asked too many questions, although she knew everything and understood me, no matter what. She was like a big sister to me and I love her so much and I really hope that one day we will meet again! ;)
Of course I have now Jaana and Sam here, in Estonia, it should make it easier, but no, I miss the Covilha vibe, the portugese 'calma' reaction to everything and I hope that it remain attached to me :) but not the lazy part! ;) :P
I want to say thank you to all romanian people... who teached me a lot of stuff about life and how to deal with the things that life feeds you. For example Laura, who unconsciously taught me patience, that I even didn't know I have. Mada, who showed me that people can fall in love and feel something amazing with really short amount of time. Lily, who was sad in the beginning but she changed, and I saw how it is possible to grow and change something inside of yourself with time, all that matters are the people around you. She is like a lil sister to me! :P And of course Sanzi, she is one who really grew in me... I even don't know how to explain that or if it is even possible. I can not wait to see her again. All the stories that we shared, all the adventures, all the crying and madness! This is real love!
I am afraid, that the most difficult part is how I will see the Turks again, but one is for sure, Altay was the one, like a brother to me, who helped me in the beginning the most. Without him, I would have been so lost, but him, Zafer and others (Buse, Seyma, Hazal), who showed me the music and their culture... this was the starting point for me! Thank you guys, so-so much!
I will miss even the people who didn't understand me totally, but life is sometimes like that and we just have to forgive and stay happy for what we experienced. I will always remember the local people like Rodolfo, Goncalo, Karlos, all the ESN people, especially Tiago and Gabriel. And the people from school, my group mates Maria, Isis and Raquel and other awesome people like Carolina and Sueli. :D And huge thanks for Pedro for everything he did and say to me!
And very many thanks to the Polish people, who made me laugh, like Aneta, Karolina and of course Agnieszka, one day hopefully we can still sing karaoke together. ;) The gym junkies Dawid and the other big guy! :D dobrze!
And for sure can not leave out the Italianos! :D I will not cry because of them, cause they made me always happy, I even don't know how or why, but their positive vibe was always around me, when they were close. Francesco - the tallest italian guy I guess :D Lorenzo - the most fashionable guy (''you are THE fashion'' :D ), and Selli - the coolest 'pothead' girl ever. :D
And last but not least - Mike - I know him only for two weeks or so, but it feels like forever. He is kinda a men version of me and I will miss that the most. His talkative attitude, that didn't let us feel awkwardness when it was quiet, his stile and smart point of few of the life. And all other craziness that he make around himself.
These people are really special, cause most of them where with me from the beginning and the ones that were not, are just really similar to me and way too interesting to let them go, which makes me sad that I didn't met them sooner. Of course later I found more friends that are also important and special and I will remember you guys forever, that is for sure! I can feel, how this experience opened my heart to so many things and people, this was the chance to start thinking and seeing the world differently! Erasmus changed my life!
I will love you guys forever! <3
Piret
